people you've known throughout your life, change with time. it's kinda weird seeing your friends, cousins, colleagues, family members, acting all different from what you've actually seen them to be and foresee them to be. or maybe my judgements are all wrong.. always been making bad or rather wrong judgements. never gettin' away from it.

i need a holiday soon.

aloy chat up with me to catch up and what he said struck me. "i can see it"
lol. well yeah..ratehr then someone who crap his way throughout the chat thanks to the weed effect. don't try to smoke me with that alright. no one's better at getting dope than Nick Keong. though aloy been asking me to plan a gathering of sort, so does dil dogg, dean, yan and rafi.
cmon, we aren't in tekong anymore, i've quit as an "event planner" the moment i ORD. so pass it to you guys.

been bumping to people that i never thought i'll say hi to. but being the nice guy i was brought up to be, i'll still say hello.

i kinda miss the colourful side of me. it's all so dull now, no ones to blame, maybe work got me the way they want me to be. i realise that my smile just ain't the smile i want or rather i love to see myself in, the laugh just ain't as hilarious as it should be. getting older it seems. still remember the time when i keep denying the fact that i'll behave accordingly to age. dammit, u guys win the bet then.

there's no denying that i'm only in love with HER.

selfish.
it's about time u place both feet on the ground.
limit.

succumb.
submissive.
sacrifice.
just dunno how to react.

it's such a confusing world.
it's best to hide and not be all this, suffer in silence, which will subside as time pass.
such utter confusion.